Last night I didnt get to sleep at all

Wow.. I havent blogged in a minute simply because the things that i have seen lately arent really things that I want to blog about. Or so it seemed to me. But after thinking about it, I realized I could use this forum to purge myself.. so to speak. LOL Well BFF did blow into town as usual last weekend, after we made plans all week to hang Friday,Saturday and Sunday he became GHOST on Friday..Then decides to contact me after 1:00AM.. asking casually "whatr you doing" I was a little peeved (though i dont know why as this is COMMON behavior for him..but MORE on that later.) I replied "Im at Moya" (the Friday nite disco for us) when in truth I was... in my bathroom.. Come on.. I just woke up.. So then I text back asking if he wanted to do breakfast in the A.M. sorta to redeem himself to which he replies "I cant.. I have an appt...Code for... I have to go lay with someone" So I paid him, cleaned my apt... and went to sleep. In the mean time.. another individual text me.. BFF and I call him "mister 'we're not having sex'". Wanting to come over after 2 AM and "help" me clean he says... I declined... UGH.. I can clean my own flat thank you very much. Upon waking up on Saturday I dressed and headed to my FAVE area in Atlanta...LFP (LIL FIVE POINTS) and did a LIL shopping.. I scored some great vintage sneaks.. and a pair of jeans.. both just perfect for the function. After my retail therapy (cuz i was still kinda sad about my hottie who thinks im a NOTTIE) I motored on to my flat for a quick costume change..then it was on to the mall to play with BFF. Well I ended up being in the mood to drive.. so i picked him up.. Swung back by 2025 Peachtree and headed out to Lenox to see what we could pick up..in the line of clothes that is. Well though i was salty with BFF as usual..we had a blast. AS USUAL.. after perusing and cruising Lenox we made our exit. Upon parting we agreed we would check out the bottle suckers at Traxx.. dont ASK!. So again i pointed Diana in the direction of Peachtree and headed home. I dressed simply for the function that evening choosing a simple Vneck H&M tee and True religions with a red fitted. Must say i looked my best. We arrived, I was fluffed up by the door man as ALWAYS and then we proceeded inside where i drank (too much.. the cups they use are too big) and danced the nite away. 5 AM we stumbled out.. and I went to my flat to end the evening..ALONE (sigh) I tried to contact my hottie to have some company..but that was not sucessful. So I went to SLEEP. Sunday came and I was longing for my family so I departed civilization (buckhead) and zoomed to no mans land (Conyers). I hung with my cousin and aunt, did some laundy and watched El Cantante (which i LOVE). Around 7 ish I thanked my fam for a good time .. and the SOAP POWDER..climbed in Diana with my laundry and moved it up 20 to the house. Well I had planned to stay in and cook sunday evening but BFF had other plans so we decided we would report to Django for duty. This was a good look. My crush WAS NOT there! THANK GOD and I was able to enjoy the evening without crying my heart out. The high points of the evening were.. of course when they played Diana Ross- The Boss for me..I tried to make the dance floor my playground. And when this hottie came up to me toting an H20 gun and asking if i wanted a "shot"...well I thought he was going to shoot me in the spirit of a wet tee contest LOL.. he tells me to OPEN MY MOUTH.. well having the mentality of a 20 year old party animal..I DO. He shoots Vodka down my throat. All down my throat. WOW. BFF looked at me like i was a lost cause.. But it was all in fun. :-) Well the low light of the evening was when this CRUSTY looking OLD man followed me into the restroom when u went to wipe my face..and proceed to "accidentally" touch my body.. Do I look like Mariah Carey to ANYONE... yeah.. So after standing there and giving him the stare of DEATH. I came back out and was READY to leave. Which we did. I arrived at my flat at approx 12. and went to bed. Well Monday ..My crush tells me "im sorta dating someone and we'll prob do something for Valloween" ... And to quote Etta...All I could do was CRY. I was NOT happy. but.. I smiled at the text.. promptly replied "oh i didnt realize... Im happy for you"... cried for the rest of the day and then went home.. not happy. and here we are at Tuesday. Im just neutral at this point on that situation. Because i was already sensitive to Valloween coming up.. but I will just soldier on. I slept NONE last nite thinking about this mess...or because of the diet pills maybe...who knows..(the pills are terrific by the way... totally murders ur appetite) Update.. Im dieting.. lets see if I can actually lose the Extra meat! OH MY