You Disappear

Well 2009 has come and it has not begun as a banner year for me. I have managed in this small space of time to get my heart completely broken and it just seems as though this is the single dominating thing for the beginning of the year. Historically whenever I have been in a place emotionally that I would rather not be, I have been able to either throw myself into my work or my social life. The latter would seem especially effective living in Atlanta where honestly there is ALWAYS something to do socially and also being the city that my BFF resides in--if only part time. But it seems lately the things that saved me in the past are just not helping. Case and point: attending one function and having to excuse myself under the guise of taking a potty break when really I had to get it together and dry my eyes after seeing the source of my misery. I can't seem to figure out why we allow people to have this type of power over us... Aside from this constant sadness, I do enjoy life on Peachtree RD. Its what i wanted.. Today as i write i miss my best friend, and am anticipating the time that we will no doubt spend this weekend just being with each other laughing and hanging out. It's a good life. But right now.. It is a Sad one.