In The Dark We'll Feel The Light..Warm Our Hearts.. Every One.....

First let me start by saying that I know that I have been away for a long while. But I have been just getting a lot of things in order. And taking a moment to keep a lower profile.. really concentrating on hearth and home and attempting to build other relationships, and ties in other areas that stretched beyond Peachtree Rd.

It has been a fun filled time and also a turbulent time. I want to tell you each one that you have never been far from my thoughts or my heart.. A lot has happened in the time of my hiatus. I want to mention that Jersey and I have begun to communicate again sproadically.. he has relocated to his home town.. and I miss him terribly.. not in a romantic sense but in the sense that his leaving, narrows down the list of people here in Atlanta that I actually find to be cool, and genuine in their ways.

So Jersey will be missed and hopefully the spell of the South will lure him back to the moonlight and magnolias of Georgia...and I can whip up on him in an intense game of spades lol. You see..after all the romantic entanglement...Jersey and I are...GREAT FRIENDS..which is what we should've been to start with.

In this time that I have been away, I literally found myself dropping off the scene entirely.. There has been no Facebook...No Twitter...nothing.. I have literally been just working...reading books....LOTS of books,...no parties.. just home.. and being very introspective..trying to just recover from things that I didnt even realize that I needed to recover from.. Things deep in my past that have had profound effects on me that I never imagined even phased me.  It's been a moment of peace, and just being to me..  BFF and I no longer speak. Dee Pee and I speak daily.. Dee Pee is there as a true friend.. one that loves me.. wants nothing more than for me to be happy.. he cares for me. Calls just to say hello and to act a fool on the phone.. I love him. I really do.

Basically I have been taking a moment to enjoy life.. and enjoy me. Just to look around and reevaluate.. and simplify.. What do I need at this moment in my life? My ego doesn't require a lot at this time.. I dont need a lot of cars, or a lot of clothes.. or a lot of things.... these things don't bring me the pleasure that they used to. I get pleasure at this time, from the smallest of things.. Deep breaths... Sunshine..Lying in the bed all day staring at the ceiling.. Peace.. My family... Hearing my song on the radio... A hot bath.. Relaxation.. maybe I am getting old.. or maybe 2010 is going to be a year of self reflection, Peace...and healing.. Either way..it will be MY YEAR.