IT'S MY TURN

This is a truly wonderful and magical time in the life of JaYLuv.. I have been trying to become more focused about the business aspects of my life..IE... Where the money is coming from, How Much is coming, and When it is coming as well as WHERE it is going.. I set a goal for myself... by September 09 I plan to have solidified my finances, placing me in a much desired position... actually having MORE MONEY than I can spend lol Well to that end.. I did begin to focus more on my career. Giving 110 percent as well as taking total responsibility for my work.. for my output.. I figured that if I wanted to take responsibility for ALL aspects of my life, Id better start here first.. Seeing as how my career drives my finances directly.. Finally I received my reward.. I received a promotion!!!!! This was truly a pivotal and EMOTIONAL moment for me... I agonized over this decision... Simply because I had grown so accustomed and connected to the team of individuals that I worked with day to day. Each special person provided integral support from my Lead who believed in me.. encouraging me day to day to dare to do more.. to keep trying, and learning to my Manager who fought for me.. who saw in me potential when I did not see it in myself, and my supervisor who kept me grounded.. I loved each one.. I spent so many moments wondering if I COULD leave this place that I had been in.. Then I began to realize that If I did not attempt to step up and OUT.. I would be like a puddle of standing water.. just sitting there NOT moving.. I realized that I had to at some point take all the things that the people who were the sources of my career taught me, and use them. I told no one of my plans. I simply went after the position that I desired. TRUSTING that whatever happened to me would be POSITIVE.. and I pressed on.. TRUSTING.. STRETCHING to take that one giant step. It was almost like playing that game Mother May I... Well When I asked if I could take ONE GIANT STEP....the leader answered.. YES YOU MAY.. And I found myself faced with leaving the safety that I had become used to.. to go elsewhere. To move on.. Each and every person that I named before was sad to see me go.. It's almost like a child leaving home.. They don't want you to go..YET... you HAVE to go.. You have to grow.. I started my new position today.. When I saw each and every one of my former cohorts there was a lot of crying inside.. a lot of sad glances.. but several things helped me in making my decision. I have responsibilities in my life.. things that I must take care of.. I cannot allow for mishaps or mistakes. I need to be making a certain amount of money in order to see to it that I can maintain a certain standard. I have that. I needed to grow. To be in an environment where I could use all the tools given to me over the last year. I have that. I needed to be where I am now.. And I am pleased. I took a great deal of criticism for the way that I chose to leave my team (quietly) and was accused of backstabbing for leaving at all. But it was MY TURN. Sacrifices yes.. I don't have a man in my life. I have no children but.. those i feel are fair trades for what I do have.. PS..while I am out enjoying my new salary.. I will think of all of you.. the fans.. as I buy ridiculously overpriced items and NOT worry about the price tags ... KISS KISS KIDDIES.. till next time